What do you want? Are you able to articulate your “big picture dreams and desires” in 20 or fewer words. I challenge you to write it. Be careful not to waste your want-quotient. Remember, it is only possible to want for yourself. All other wanting is useless.

“Six years ago my husband befriended a young girl who needed his help. She is the same age has our daughter. They started to sms each other and they knew everything about each other. I really had a bad time dealing with it including sleepless nights. I could not understand how they could be so cruel to do this to me. I kept everything to myself, suffering in silence. We are still together and he is still in contact with her, although she has a boyfriend. They now work together so I cannot do anything but pray. My only regret is that I wished I had told the family. I blame myself for allowing it to happen. I choose to stay because of my children so that they could have the love of a father.” (Edited)

Your contributions to this mess are your silence and embracing your role as a victim. It is possible, even after 6 years, to speak up. Take him by surprise and refuse to cooperate with his toxic triangle. What do you have to lose that you have not already lost? Become exceedingly uncooperative with his game so that you may reacquaint yourself with the silent, yet powerful, woman within you.

Today, and perhaps just for today, I am going to turn my world upside down. I am going to address selfishness with generosity, confront fear with faith, and unkind people with a direct and bold, friendly approach. When I see divisive behavior or hear divisive talk, I am going to be strong and forthright. I will get myself out of corners by refusing to indulge in destructive dialogue about anyone. I am going to forgive others, even those who do not think they need it. I am going to do all I can to put others in touch with their own greatness and potential for it. I will look for the good in others, help them discover their talents, and encourage them to use their skills and gifting. When I am tempted to focus on the debilitating issues of the immediate, I will take a large step backwards and look at the larger picture. When the future, the “big picture”, with its risks and difficulties scares me, I will focus on the immediate beauty that surrounds me. Today holds as much opportunity for wellness, generosity, greatness, kindness, grace, and humor as any day, and therefore, I will not miss a moment of it.

1. From the most casual to the most intimate of relationships people will ultimately, if not immediately, resist control.
2. Forgiveness and grace will ultimately over-power resentment and rigidity.
3. Unless parties are equal and respectful and mutual in every manner an adult-adult relationship will never reach its full potential.
4. While parents are more focused on their children than they are on growth within their own lives, the children will carry the unresolved issues of the over-focused parent.
5. A new beginning, a clean slate, turning over a new leaf (however the metaphor is phrased) is only authentically possible when reasonable attempts have been made to mend the errors of the past.
6. (Submitted by “Lighthouse”) A relative over investment or under performance in a relationship will surely lead to a chaotic correction. While you cannot escape this truth, you can escape the hazard by using discretion when choosing with whom to have relationships and what level of intimacy you share. Choose people whose inclination is to invest at a sustainable level and just let them be themselves… but only if you can commit to the same or people will be escaping from you.

“Be assured I always read your column and insights. It’s a subtle barometer of human engagement and generally, I agree with your position and comment. Hmm, guess what’s coming next? Yes, I don’t quite concur with what I suspect was a subjective measure of ‘integrity’ and possible moral overtones regarding an ‘affair’ in a marriage of convenience (column on Friday, May 7, 2010). There are many adults that have the emotional maturity, if not jaded view of an ‘institution’ that is out of line with our real lives, to pursue ‘romantic trysts’. Thrilling, rejuvenating, and often causing entropy, it is perfect in our imperfection. Escalating marital disgust but with apathy to end it, is easily derailed by an affair, but it may even serve to repair and build a relationship! An unwavering position of ‘wrongness’ and that ‘heartache’ is a certainty, accords an inappropriate moralism and naiveté upon many adults in such situations.”

“Thanks for warning me regarding the affair I am probably about to begin. I can’t seem to stop myself. I feel like part of me is on some kind of mission.”