There is always an option to be kind whatever the circumstance.

Being kind does not mean you cannot be assertive, that you must accommodate poor service or poor manners, or that you have to be a pushover. Such conclusions are nonsense.

Kindness begins and has its life within you already.

Or, it doesn’t.

Kindness is a character issue. It is not contingent on what’s going on around you. It’s an expression of what is going on in you.

If you or I believe our negative responses like unkindness or irritability or rudeness are subject to what’s going on around us we will continue to live as victims – and make others into our victims. While this is our mindset we will be played by circumstance and become as unpredictable as circumstance. People who trust and depend on us will become edgy as they perceive tides change around us.

When you and I take responsibility for ourselves and plan our inner-day and make kindness toward self and others a high priority, we become storm calmers, peacemakers, and the trust quotient afforded to us by others, especially those who are nearest and dearest, will enjoy and safe and steady incline.

The family break, the schism between brother and brother, daughter and mother, can be resolved. That loss of a long-held friendship, that business or church breakup, can be healed.

While being right is more important than being loving the schism will grow and the pain and the hardness will multiply and bitterness will become a way of life.

Oh, you may say there is no more pain, no hardness, but this is just one source of your anger.

That flare of hot anger you feel in totally unrelated circumstances? This is where it started. That capacity you have to ignore the needy, treat the outcast with contempt? This is one of the places that inhuman “ability” got a jump-start within.

You may indeed have been right, but you are yet alienated from each other just as if you’d been wrong. Now your anger is your unaddressed grief turned to hardness, sarcasm, and contempt, and it is playing its let-me-out-of-here game.

Come to the table embracing Humility and you will find full reconciliation. Bow your heart, be the first to do it, even if you are the one more offended.

Forgiveness and reconciliation will not do their beautiful work while pride, entitlement, victimhood, and contempt are doing theirs.

The center of gravity in my family has changed.

When the new year sauntered in each of son sent me a text. The one sent three lowercase letters that I was instantly able to decode as “happy new year.” The other spelled it each word. One was 5 minutes away at a party with all his basketball teammates, the other was an hour away with lifelong friends.

That both messages arrived on the nail of midnight meant a lot to me. It meant they were both thinking about me and, that they were thinking about me and both beat me to the keyboard to send greetings, gave me quite a lift.

But, I was far from down.

I could have been with either boy. I could have had us all together at New Year just as we did for at least most of their lives.

But, the center of gravity began to shift a few years ago and I was not going to get in its way.

I prefer a quiet new year.

Each boy has his own tight circle of peers.

The “we” of us is important but it the “we” in their respective peer groups is more so.

This “we” has served its purpose.

That “we” is doing its job.

Thanks be to God.

Every act of human goodness begins within the deepest recesses of an individual psyche, soul, or spirit – call that beautiful center of a person whatever you will.

It’s truly an inside job.

Kindness, generosity, forgiveness are bold, inner-initiatives. It’s got to happen in you. It’s got to happen in me. Before the goodness can overflow and touch others, and change families, and ripple through communities, it must do it’s powerful and good work first within.

We have to welcome the divine impulse to enrich those about us. We have to hear its sometimes whispered cry, acknowledge its gentle nudge, or feel its severe jolt within us, however it may choose to get our attention, and then respond to it, welcome it, foster it, so it takes root.

And, when it has taken root, it will do its good work. Little can stop it. It will attack all remnants of all prejudice, all prideful propensities, all inclination to harbor resentment, spread gossip, or demean others. Goodness will assist in the joy of regarding others as an opportunity to offer grace and hospitality. It assists you and me to see others as the miracles they are and remind us that people are not as they appear to be – they are as we are.

The Mercury / Thursday

Angry people often blame circumstances for their rage when it is circumstances trigger what’s already within.

I was second in line at a cellular phone outlet. The customer ahead of me began viciously screaming at the salesman. When encouraged to calm down he pointed at the salesman as if he himself was powerless over his own angry response. The man apparently sincerely believes his angry outbursts are the responsibility of others.

In backed up traffic I saw a vivid illustration: On my left a man was pounding his fists, waving his arms, and some poor soul was getting the thrust of his anger over the phone. To my right the driver was apparently listening to something really funny and the traffic hadn’t gotten to her at all.

It would be easy to suggest the man was in a hurry and the woman was not.

Actually, the one is angry, and the other is not.

The traffic is the catalyst.

Few angry people seem to understand that anger and happiness and joy and forgiveness and resentment and generosity are all inside jobs.

It’s a tough lesson for those prone to rage, but, when a willing learner understands it and does something about it, it brings huge changes and relief to a person and usually to an entire family.

The Mercury / Thursday

We are a fragile bunch, we humans. I’ve seen it a hundred times in you and in me. A mere look from someone we love can render us broken-hearted and upset us for an entire day or until we find resolution.

We are a resilient bunch, we humans. I’ve seen it vastly more than I’ve seen our shared fragility. We know how to love, to forgive, and to give again and again. We know how to mine the best in others, even those who have not treated us very well. I’ve stood in wonder dozens of times by the resilience I have seen in people facing hard times.

We are a tenacious species. I’ve taken myself by surprise at my ability to get what I need and what I want for my sons and for myself despite considerable resistance from those who’d prefer me not to. Like you, I go at it, wanting nothing more or less than what is good and right for my family and for others in the firm belief that in all situations we can all win.

We are funny.

Born for family and born to thrive in community, and yet acting so often as if it’s the last thing we want.

Get out of the middle of relationships (issues, concerns) that do not directly involve you. Your spouse’s relationship with your parents (your husband’s relationship with your son) does not involve you. It is close, it impacts you, but you are not part of it or responsible for it. Being “piggy-in-the-middle” is not much fun for piggy.

Resist speaking for others, explaining people to each other or being “communication central.” Allow people to speak for themselves and to each other without your help. Retrench yourself from being the family switchboard.

Extricate yourself from unnecessary binds (inappropriate loyalties) by refusing to harbor secrets and gossip even with your best of friends.

Move beyond blame by taking full responsibility for every aspect of your life. While you may have had a lousy childhood you are now an adult who, despite the many failings of your nurturers, has an opportunity to embrace life to the full.

Forgive everyone for everything because it’s a whole lot easier than accumulating grudges and safer than hosting bitter poison.

Show up, stand up, speak up for yourself – it’s really good practice and an excellent deterrent of abusive, controlling types. They will run a mile when they see what you are made of.

Arrange your inner-life (emotions, attitude) before your plan your daily schedule (your outer-life).

“You are as healthy as your secrets” goes a common adage in talk therapy circles.

Our dark secrets: these are the secrets that shift us into shame-mode, haunt our memories, needle our rest at three in the morning, and bind and silence us, keep us enslaved to their dark powers. These secrets debilitate us, silence us, make us captives, make us suspicious of others, and make us edgy in the presence where exposure threatens.

Our dark secrets can drive us into parallel behaviors that mimic the events that initiated the secrets in the first place.

These are the secrets worth exposing to a professional that their powers may be broken and the holder of secrets may be set free.

Our healthy secrets (yes, there are healthy secrets): the knowledge of shared and powerful intimacy, the knowledge and the trust of mutual promises made between equal partners, the pleasures found in a revisiting exhilarating and treasured memories, empower us.

These secrets free us, amplify our strengths and, as a result, we spill health into our families and upon all whom we meet.

These are secrets amplify any goodness within us and are worthy of being hidden in our hearts for they do no damage.

Fundamentals about human relationships:

• Every interpersonal overreaction, poor attitude, expression of anger will have an equal and opposite reaction if it comes from a desire to control, manipulate, or maneuver another, no matter how much love there is purported to be. People are designed for freedom and attempts to restrict it will ultimately stir rebellion (it may take years) within the victim.  
• The person who most wants whatever from another person (insert a desire: time, extended conversations, sex, a beach walk, loan, a long chat over coffee) places the potential giver in a position of power. This is part of the reason pleading and begging is so unattractive.
• The stronger, more mature person of any two people in a relationship will be the one who seeks forgiveness and reconciliation when a relationship is derailed. While the focus is who is right or wrong and who need to apologize first and who started whatever, the people are not ready for reconciliation.
• Mutual attraction is about matched levels of maturity or immaturity. People of dissimilar levels of maturity will hardly notice each other. Equally needy people will attract each other like powerful magnets and the attraction will feel like a match made in heaven – at least at first.  

Some things are simply up to you (and to me)…

• How open and available you are to new experiences, adventures, and meeting new people
• How generous and kind and forgiving you are to others (and to yourself) under every circumstance
• How much you communicate with your aged parents and how much time you generously and freely offer them
• How much you interact or communicate with your brothers or sisters or other relatives
• How you treat your in-laws
• How much you respect and show that respect to all people and especially those who are outside of your chosen circle of relationships
• How you use the power afforded you or the illusion of power afforded to you
• How much you will allow friends and associates to know you and participate in your life
• How angry or reactive you are when you are faced with the poor driving or less than perfect service or when you are overlooked or ignored
• How much you will allow prejudice and stereotypes to shape your attitudes and behaviors

I will remind my treasured readers that I am my own first audience and everything I write pertains first to me. We are in this wonderful adventure of life together.