“I divorced my control-freak husband. Then I fell in love with a single guy who broke up with me. I used a gym membership to come out of depression. After six months I started looking quite attractive and single and married men started hitting on me. Married men hitting on me disgusted me. I vowed I would never break a relationship. Dozens of men swarmed around me. I went to a party and met this very interesting guy. He was showing interest and I felt great. He told me he is married. The next day he emailed me and I could not control myself and replied. He was forced to marry at 23. I was very attracted after being celibate for 9 months. We agreed that there is no future. He will never divorce. We decided to keep it on an emotional level as friends.” (Edited)

You appear tethered to the idea that your entire value is found in being attractive and having a man. You will therefore attract men who are equally plagued by the idea that meaning is only found in “having” a woman. Until you discover an internally sustained, unique, and personal calling, the moving targets (the men who swarm around you) and authentic fulfillment will constantly elude you.