F words / Failure, Fragile, Forgiveness, Freedom

by Rod Smith

My failures get in my way.

I can’t speak for you, but mine do.

Do yours? 

Finding the opportunity to seek forgiveness, participate in repair or restitution with people whom I have hurt may result in their expressing forgiveness. While hearing such comforting words warms me, self-forgiveness remains difficult.

Do you have similar battles?  

I know this is a particular struggle because having known what is right, good, wholesome, I have not always done what is right and good and wholesome. I find this painful to admit and address. Knowing better was hardly helpful.

While it is no excuse, I am aware that I am not too different from many.  

When I am feeling down it feels as if my failures speak louder than any successes. Despite the knowledge that “people are more than their actions” shame seeps and runs deep and makes me feel vulnerable and fragile. It can be a physical sensation.

Again, I must ask, do you ever feel this way? 

When I am at my best, I can humble myself, accept my imperfections and that I am a forgiven person.

Admitting I am flawed is key to my freedom which leads me to self forgiveness at which point freedom fills my soul. 

My book will be available soon.

3 Comments to “F words / Failure, Fragile, Forgiveness, Freedom”

  1. Jean Cass's avatar

    Oh how wonderful that you’ve written a book… I can’t wait to read it. You are so honest with your emotions Rod… I sometimes have to wonder what my emotions are. I’m very quick to ask for forgiveness and can’t remember ever beating myself up about having failed. If I don’t deal with something that I have done wrong, the Lord wakes me up at 3am that night. I’ve always thought I’m wonderful, 😜but realised a long time ago that it’s God in me that is wonderful…that gave me a wake up call. Trusting you are well and enjoying your travels. I’m so looking forward to seeing you and hearing about your latest adventures. You are a great character Mr Rod Smith. What week are teaching in Worcester…want to find out if I’m allowed to attend again. See you soon 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻😤

  2. Unknown's avatar

    Thank you,

    This was very helpful and much on point for me.

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