Archive for ‘Anger’

May 10, 2006

I don’t want to hurt him…….

by Rod Smith

“I do not want to hurt my ‘partner’ to get what I would like so I have given him – we have been in an affair since 1985 — an ultimatum. I am moving on with my life. I really want to move on but I am deeply in love with him. He always told me that he was not having an intimate relationship with his wife but I could never believe that and never will. All I am seeking is a closure on this fairy tale story. He is an excellent gentleman and I do not like to hurt him. I am getting hurt all the time. He is finding it difficult to accept my decision and he can’t come up with a decision.” (Letter edited)

Rod’s response: This is no fairy tale. It is a nightmare! You will not live with this man without being married to him – but you will see him behind his wife’s back? What nonsense. He is NOT an EXCELLENT man.

Excellent men do not treat their wives (or women) this way. You need professional help to rid yourself of all these ridiculous double standards and the deep-seated deceit in which you have engaged for so very long.

March 31, 2006

Reactive people tend to damage relationships….

by Rod Smith

Get out of the middle!

Get out of the middle!

Are you a reactive person or a responsive person?

Reactive behavior is characterized by:

1. Rash, knee-jerk decisions; being anger-driven, living with a “short fuse.”
2. Getting other people rallying for a cause, stampeding to get your way.
3. Being highly subjective and self-protective.
4. Running in the other direction.
5. Being easily hurt, insulted, or damaged.
6. Being humorless or seeing humor as a waste of time.
7. Developing a conspiratorial tone with others.
8. Saying, “People are saying…… about you.”
9. Over-functioning (doing things beyond your responsibilities).
10. Under-functioning (avoiding your responsibilities).
11. Giving unsought advice and expecting it to be followed.
12. Doing things for others that they can do for themselves.
13. Remaining surprised and innocent after causing much disruption.
14. Being vindictive.
15. Trying to get people to take sides.
16. Being unable to see beyond survival, feeling threatened at every turn.
17. Feeling overly responsible for others.
18. Feeling no other person, except you, knows what is right or good.

March 13, 2006

For parents, teachers, and coaches

by Rod Smith

Rearing children is perhaps the arena or avenue where you, parent, coach or teacher, will make your most profound impact on the world.

Surely the strongest influence upon how we will raise our children might be the manner in which we ourselves were raised? Much can be gained from trying to remember what childhood was really like. If ignored, and if your childhood was difficult, it will color and influence everything about you, including the manner in which you treat children.

I would strongly suggest that any adult who lives or works with children periodically finds a comfortable place to be alone and undisturbed. Then, as a form of meditation, he or she reaches into the memory bank of his or her childhood to see it all again.

Can you see the world through the eyes of a child?

Can you immerse yourself and get into the experience of a child?

Can you feel, see, think, believe and trust others from the perspective of a child (as if you were still a child)?

Are you able to reach into your own childhood and capture the feeling of childlike vulnerability again?

Perhaps, you never knew such vulnerability at anytime in your life.

March 8, 2006

Sometimes a person you once loved (or still love) can be unnecessarily cruel

by Rod Smith

I am getting divorced after twenty years of marriage. While discussing financial matters, my soon-to-be ex-husband told me that in his “new life” he has found love that he has never before experienced with me. After all the feelings of betrayal and the on-going tension with the three children, when he said this it still hit me very hard. Was there nothing in 24 years he thought was real love? He has no clue about how hurtful it was to hear such a thing? Should I be angry or sad?

Be both! Each is appropriate. Knowing it is very difficult, I encourage you to shift your focus off him. Divorce is often a cruel form of warfare and he deployed a weapon to inflict unnecessary pain. His words have no benefit to anyone but to underscore that the man you once loved has resorted to unnecessary cruelty. Perhaps he is looking affirmation, some way of telling himself that he has done the right thing; that his move was worth it. Leaving children carries a great price. Somehow blaming you (for not really giving him “real” love) puts some of that payment at your feet. Don’t believe a word of it!

March 6, 2006

Finding your unique voice in ALL your relationships

by Rod Smith

Every person has a voice that is designed, urging, even aching, for complete use and full expression. Some people have allowed their voices to be stolen, silenced or modified and such people might find it necessary to take time to find or re-establish the voice they have chosen to deny or ignore. There is nothing “spiritual” or humble about giving up your voice — not even God demands your silence!

Thankfully, suppressing a voice seldom kills it. It can usually be found even after years of denial and even cruelty. This is as true for individuals as it is of entire populations.

Having a voice means exerting your right to see, evaluate, and express who you are, and what you stand for, without apology. It means speaking up. It means telling the world who you are, and what you want. It involves telling the world who you are not and what you will and will not accept of tolerate. It is allowing your life to speak appropriately and boldly, without explanation or excuse.

When you find your voice you will not allow people to speak for you, decide for you, and prescribe how you feel, think or see the world. Of course, you in turn will not take the voice of another away from them.

It is not very loving to give up your voice, or to allow someone else to take yours away from you. People can hardly handle the power of their own voice let alone handle the voice of two or three other people.

Any person who will not hear what you have to say, or who tries to silence you, does not love you even if he says he does. It is never a loving act, except in very unusual circumstances, to stop someone from expressing who they are. Likewise, it is never a loving act to withhold your contribution to the world by maintaining your silence.

You were not created to be silent and nor were you created to silence others. The world will benefit for hearing who you are and what you have to say. Part of owning a voice and using it well involves the process of discovering how best to package and express your voice in a manner that facilitates others to hear who and what you are and what you have to say.

Please, compromise yourself, your talents and skills for no one. Be silenced or made “smaller,” rendered without a voice for no one. It is never worth it. There is no cause, no relationship, worthy of your silence.

There is no person of any rank, no spouse, boss or spiritual leader deserving of your downplaying who and what you are. It is those with dark motives, who seek for you to be less, minimized, diminished or silenced. Walk away from such small-mindedness even if it is costly to do so.

Loving, good people will celebrate your strength, encourage your freedom and admire your talent. Stick with such people. Stay with those who enlarge your world, not restrict or contain it. Live fully, love fully and speak fully – while embracing all the freedom life offers you.

I am weary of men and women, irrespective of who or what they are, who hold others captive, especially in the name of love; of spiritual “leaders” who are afraid of gifted people; of bosses who silence talented people lest their own inadequacies be revealed.

If you live above, and beyond, the damaging jealousies that surround you, you will stimulate the dreams of everyone in your circle of influence and make your own dreams come true before your very eyes – and the world will hear your voice.

March 6, 2006

How to have good conflict with somene you love

by Rod Smith

“Stop. Look. Listen,” is a well-known maxim used to teach children to safely cross the street. It’s also helpful when employed by loving adults who are in conflict with each other. Flying off the handle, jumping to conclusions, and speaking before listening can result in unnecessarily hurtful exchanges.

Both persons would benefit from agreeing to:

Stop: Remind yourself that your conflict is with a person with whom you have significant history. While stopping is not easy, when you feel attacked or betrayed, slowing yourself down will reduce the damage that can result when words are hastily exchanged.

Look: Look at the person with whom you are in conflict. Look into his or her eyes deeply enough until you can see into their heart. It is unlikely the person before you is purposefully trying to hurt you.

Listen: After you have stopped and looked, listen to the issue at hand. Listen to what is being said, to what is not being said. Listen without interrupting, whether you agree or not.

In stopping, looking and listening you might learn about your blind spots, your potential for denial and the perspective of others — and you might find some resolution without causing unnecessary pain and hurt.

February 17, 2006

Early signs of an unhealthy alliance – avoid intimate relationships with people who —

by Rod Smith

Letters consistently pour in from men and women in unhealthy relationships. I think often of how much pain could be avoided if people were simply willing to see the warning signs before marriage, before children, before hearts harden and before bitterness sets in. Here are some, of course not all, of the early warning signs that a relationship will sour short of a miracle. Although cumbersome, I have used “he/she” on each occasion for neither gender appears to be without guilt when it comes to distorting intimate relationships:

He/she does not respect his or her parents.
He/she lies about “little” things.
He/she is in debt at a young age.
He/she sees people as expendable.
He/she gets angry very quickly with waiters or servers of any kind.
He/she feels entitled to respect he or she has not earned.
He/she is financially, morally, and sexually unfaithful, and appears unconcerned about the importance of personal integrity in his/her life.
He/she opens your mail, snoops in your business, and thinks you should have no secrets between you.
He/she speaks for you and tells you how you “should” feel, think and speak.
He/she tells you that you are stupid and that he or she knows you better than you know yourself.
He/she believes most other people are idiots and often says so.

February 13, 2006

My boyfriend threatens to “smack” me…

by Rod Smith

QUERY: My boyfriend and I are engaged and live together. He is faithful and always helpful. He wants marriage and children. When angry, he is insulting, verbally abusive and has threatened to “smack’ me. He then calms down and asks for forgiveness for the hurtful things he says. Although I am established, confident, and have good friends, the accumulative insults make me feel worthless, and sometimes I feel he does mean what he says. I cannot take his moods and verbal abuse any more, regardless of how great he is when he is “good”. He has previously promised the problem would not happen again.

RESPONSE: Unless this person gets “outside” help his episodes of anger will only escalate. When they occur, believe everything he says, and act accordingly. Leave the home, get protection, and never blame yourself for his outbursts. If he says, during the “apology phase”, “You know I don’t really mean it,” you must say, “Then do not ever say it.”

Verbally abusive people try to change the language to suit themselves, and the victim is supposed to adjust accordingly. You appear to have a lot to lose if you leave this man. You have whole lot more to lose if you stay.

February 5, 2006

Four sure-fire ways to increase family emotional health and deal with overly-sensitive people

by Rod Smith

I have received several very welcome and lengthy letters from readers who find themselves in very complicated family relationships. Here are four broad principles for all members of a family:

1. Get yourself out of “the middle” of other people’s relationships! Don’t carry messages for others, or think for others or feel for (on the behalf of) others. Allow other adults the joy or communicating their own messages, thinking their own thoughts and feeling their own feelings.

2. Regard all other adults as complete adults and your complete equals. If you’re “on eggshells” around anyone (a parent, boss, child, spouse or former spouse) this person has inappropriate power over you that I’d suggest you address. The “eggshells” means you are not seeing yourself as an equal with this person or these people.

3. Never allow yourself to be intimidated, dominated or manipulated. Persons who use intimidation, domination or manipulation (in other words, emotional bullies) to get their way must be confronted if you want any degree of healthy dialogue.

4. Despite age, rank or status, don’t “tread lightly” around other adults. While it is unnecessary to knowingly inflict hurt on others, some people are so inappropriately sensitive that their oversensitivity can restrict others from normal behavior. If your actions are not in themselves hurtful, but are interpreted as such by some sensitive soul, I’d suggest you be yourself and challenge Mr., Mrs., or Ms. Oversensitive to grow up.

February 1, 2006

Are You In a Difficult Relationship?

by Rod Smith

You walk on eggshells. You fear fallout, yet wish for it. You say something then wish you hadn’t. You know no matter how innocent or insignificant the conflict, whatever occurs will be blown out of proportion. Innocent statements will be misinterpreted and misquoted for ever.

You feel trapped by what is supposed to be love, but have second thoughts about how love is supposed to feel. You are usually wrong and are told you are stupid. When you admit fault, even stupidity, you are at fault for admitting it. When you are right, you are wrong for saying so, or you think you are perfect and trying to show others up. If you are silent, you are avoiding conflict. If you speak out, you are looking for trouble. In your intimate whirlpool white is black, black is white and the water is very murky.

Innocence is guilt. Pointing out error is entrapment. You are exhausted by the load of meeting the emotional needs of someone who cannot take responsibility for his or her own needs. You share life with an emotional piranha and yet, you stay, feeling unable to escape.